oooooh. And this is where things get a little awkward.
Crush.. well i dont really call it a crush.
A crush is like you're halfway there.
A crush is like when you like a celebrity which you'll probably never get to meet.
It's just either i like you, or i don't. yeah.
so what i have got to say to you?
hmm..
part of me is hoping you'll see this and another is hoping that you'll just skip this :P
heyy honestly if someone last year told me i'd fall for you this year, I'll never believe it.
Aaaand you probably wouldn't have too.
Gah. this is so #awkwardturtle.
hahah! okay i'll get on with the real thing now.
hello, crush (:
I think you're cute. You can be unbelievably annoying and frustrating at times but that doesn't really stop me from liking you. Honestly I'm kinda already preparing myself for the the day you like some other girl.. and i used to beat myself up over that stupid little thought but now.. well now I've decided i'll treasure this uhhh.. thing? we have going on (if you even think we have a thing going on. hahaha.) You should know how insecure you always make me feel. In a way it's a good thing i guess, cos that means i really really like you. And in fact, I've only truly liked two people in my 14 years of existence(haha yes you should be honoured). I like it when you text me first, cos it makes me think that you actually do think about me(: and i like it when you ask me to go to school with you, it makes me feel important (: Sometimes you take forever to reply my text and I'll always try to wait maybe an hour before i reply yours (yes, on purpose. and yes, its kinda stupid.) and i wonder if you feel the way i do when i think you won't be replying me. Well, Some times I'm really just not myself when I'm with you. I try to be perfect when I'm with you cos doesn't everybody want perfect? but i suppose there are some flaws i can't hide. I'm a little too chubby and i have the worst complexion on the whole face of Earth. I'm not really really smart and my legs are totally muscle-y and gross. I don't have a great sense of humour and I'm very. very. lame. HAHA! well I'm typing all these out cos.. sometimes i guess i'm not good enough for you. They're just so many pretty girls out there i dont think you'll pick me :P well anyways, you've given me many good good memories that would be really really hard to forget and i might just like you a little.. too much.
Okay so this one's for you, dear crush.
Dedicated to you,
Crush (: (HAHA I DARE NOT WRITE YOUR NAME HERE)
