I don't believe it's stupid to have two posts a day so here goes.
My second post of the day.
Ballet was really tiring today though we spent the entire one and a half hour lesson doing just one dance. The bloody Merzeka. (probably the wrong spelling)
I just couldn't get it ._. And that dance requires a lot of hopping (every step has two hops) and I hate hopping cos it makes me feel like a bouncy ball.
Well Rachel could get the step.
As in Rachel Ng. The other Rachel.
Ms Jo then starts saying how Rachel and I suppose to be at the same level cos that's how it was since we were young. But now I can't get steps as quickly.
In a way she's trying to say I suck and the other Rachel is way better.
NOT THAT MS JO IS MEAN. I adore ms Jo and I look up to her (: she didn't say all that to put me down. That's just me and my lousy self esteem.
But the thing is Rachel and I were never the same.
Rachel was always better.
She's practically made for dancing. Really. She's got the nicest turnout and one of the best arches I've ever seen. And she's so pretty. (yes I sound very shallow) and she's THIN. Though no overly skinny that she's flat or whatever. She's practically perfect. Gah.
You know what a feel next to her? I feel like this gigantic big boned creature that's filling up the whole room with my chubs. In other words. I feel like crap. Haha I'm making myself feel lousy.
Sooooooo. Now I'm going to go home and YouTube that bloody dance and keep doing it again and again.
Annnnnnd. I'm gonna skip dinner.
Go team Rachel!
(the last part is pretty funny cos we're both Rachels )
