Today has been a pretty good day..
Everything was going my way until I realised there was gonna be ballet tomorrow..
I don't know why I'm feeling so down about this.. I mean, I love ballet..
Right?
I feel like I'm trying to convince myself that I still love it.
Everytime I get so frustrated about not getting the steps right, I'll tell myself, Rachel you love this. You know you love ballet.
But do I really?
I just suck so bad at it.
How can I suck at doing what I love?
That just... Sucks.
Urghhhh im so frustrated now that I feel like shooting everyone in sight.
Now everything is just so screwed I can't help but think that ballet is making everything worse by adding unnecessary stress. GAHHHHHH.
I really hope that everything would go right tomorrow..
That I'll get the steps right and everything would be good.
