I know it's not good and the sentences are choppy but all the words and thoughts flooding through my mind, keeping me from sleeping had to be let out somewhere.
Sleepless nights
I lay in bed
Legs so tired
Body exhausted
But my mind continues to work
A restless, endless train of thought
Full of colours
Full of sounds
Each carriage holding a precious memory
Of you and me
The first time we went out
My plan to surprise you failed
But the way you smiled at me
With the little crinkles
at the side of your eyes
With the endearing dimple
On the right side of your cheek
You smiled at me
Like I was the best part of your week.
I looked at you
Your hair so mussed
Clothes so wrinkled
After a long day at work.
Yet you stood there,
grinning at me
With your slightly crooked smile
Just beaming at me.
Without a doubt,
I knew that that was definitely
The best thing I've seen all day.
Then you said
You didn't care about my surprise,
You cared about me.
I knew then that
You might be
the best part of
My many weeks to come.
I remember one night
We laid down on the grass
Side by side
Shoulders lightly brushing
Hands almost touching
You told me about yourself
Your friends and family
Your likes and dislikes
I watched the play of emotions
run across your face
Every genuine feeling your eyes reveal
I know nothing can replace
Pride,
Shining through your eyes
As you spoke about your parents.
Wistfulness,
As you spoke about your brother.
Amusement,
Lighting up your face
Just a hint of laughter in your voice
As you spoke about your friends.
A flash of hurt,
That grim acceptance
As you mentioned your past love.
Disgust
Showing through the grimace your face held
As you talked about
prawns
Mean, bossy girls
Things that displease you.
The night was humid
A tad bit uncomfortable.
Families, friends, couples
Sprawled out on the grass
All around us
Having mindless conversations
Soft tones, loud tones
Hoarse tones, squeaky tones.
But in the midst of all that noise
I only heard your voice
Every delightful word
sinking into the depths of my mind
Every lovely chuckle
I keep close to my heart
There and then I made a vow to myself
To make sure
That if you ever spoke about me
People would see Love
When they looked into your eyes.
The first time you held my hand
So shyly your fingers brushed mine
So slowly our fingers intertwined
So comforting
Just a simple touch
How did it make me feel so much?
You drew me in closer
My heart beats faster
Breathing gets harder
I've always hated butterflies
But they filled up my stomach
Ever so quickly
And for once in my life
The thought of them all aflutter
Didn't make me feel so prickly
So tightly
You held me.
The scent of you
Engulfing my senses
Drilling its way
Into the most precious parts
of my memory
Warming the very depths
Of my young soul.
To long for a person
Who's right next to you
Does that make sense?
I'm a lousy swimmer
But I would love to drown in your laughter
I'm not much for keeping still
But in your arms I'd be still forever
Does that make sense?
Many things don't make sense
When it comes to you
But then again
Love and common sense
Have never been the best of friends
The first time your lips touched my cheek
So tender and sweet
That feeling,
It tingled down to my feet
This is it, I thought
Everything I've read in love stories
Finally happening to me,
Me
And it was you who kissed me,
You
I couldn't think of anyone better
To take your place
That was when I knew
With perfect certainty
That you could actually be
The best part of my life
The best part of me
Sleepless nights
I lay in bed
My train of thought
Finally fades
The last of it's remaining carriages
Disappearing from sight
All still empty
As it awaits
For more memories
To be made.
